This had to have been the hardest image I have ever taken. Of those of you who have seen some of my work, you know death suicide and stuff is something I shoot often. yet for this one, it was very hard.
I have had the idea for a while, there is a whole set of ideas I want to shoot that is self induced pain basicly. I was thinking more of having models other than myself... but I started thinking about doing this one today even before I saw the death challenge. For my project images.
Well, For the past seven years or so, I have had serious back issues. It keeps me from holding regular jobs, and drives me crazy because I believe in HARD WORK, Manual Labor is mostly All I have known. Now, I can't continue to do that, and have to find my place elsewhere. Yet, I don't have any insurance except for Uncle Sam, The injury was determined to be caused by the Military, so they will give me drugs to 'block' the pain instead of treating it....
So why was this image hard for me? I don't know really, except maybe that I was thinking of the people who become fully dependent on differnt types of pills to survive daily activies, and I choose to live with a certain amount of pain so I don't become dependent. As I was laying there, drooling out toothpaste, I was getting physcialy sick to my stomache, I had only taken about 4-5 images before I could not go on.
Over dose on medications is a very common way for people to attempt/commit suicide. These 'Prescribed Reliefs' are easy to get as candy.
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I was so suprised to see that this photo wasn't in the top ten - never mind so far down the rankings. I was very impressed by it - the texture, graininess and darkness add to the overall sense of sadness, desperation,seediness. I find it powerful, and it certainly had the most profound effect on me of any photo in the challenge.